For years, I’ve avoided photos of myself. When I look at a photo of myself, I see how big I truly am. I don’t really see how big I am when I look in the mirror, though. I’ve gone as far as hiding photos other people take from me or deleting them altogether from their phones or cameras. I do feel like my shoulders and a few other parts of my body are slimming down, but I feel like lately I am noticing how large my stomach is more and more. I get a little mad at myself for letting myself get this big without really caring about it. Has my stomach always been this large? I look pregnant! Look!
Realizing how large I truly am helped me push me through my work out tonight. I spent a good few hours at the gym doing cardio, the weight machines, and some of Mike’s ab exercises. It felt good. I even took an after work out thumps up pic (add me on Instagram!).
I have to remind myself that this isn’t a get fixed quick kind of thing… This is a journey. I need to accept who I am now so I can create who I wan to be in the future.